hey, i'm gonna call the doctor today. big step for me. i avoid them like the plague. i've been getting more and more anxious. i've been exposed to mrsa and need to get tested for that. i need a physical. i need a A1C blood test to make sure i don't have diabetes. (runs on both sides of my family so precautionary right now). i have to get tested for lyme's.. (yeah these are all legit concerns).. anyway.. i'm really really scared. i haven't been sleeping well and my anxiety is kicking in and telling me i'm going to die. oh that's another thing. i ran out of meds . so i'm gonna tell'em A) i need more B) could you please up the dosage? so.. wish me luck, or pray, or dance, or do whatever it is that you do.. because i can't put this off any longer. and this will be the first time i've ever gone by myself. i'm not a doctor and while these are okay to be concerned about i can't keep diagnosing myself over and over in my brain.. it's not healthy
Sorry you are having a rough go of it Steve. If you need to talk you can always hit me on AIM or via PM. Hope you get your issues sorted out.
Wednesdays used to be doctor's day at local country clubs, lots of them are closed on Wednesday. Rotten isn't it!? It is great that you are finally going to go in and get checked for a wide variety of concerns, all of which sound like real potential issues. Don't loose your resolve and get in as soon as possible. You have my prayers and best wishes!
got my records from the previous doctor. gonna call the new ones here in a bit. attempting to make an appointment for monday. things are rolling.. i'm still nervous, but i feel really proud of myself for making these steps. they're not easy for me and it makes me feel responsible and like i care.
The business side of medicine is a little wacky. Don't let that deter you. Stay the course and take responsibility! You are doing the right thing!
Dang bro. Well u have my prayers. I know how hard things can be and if u ever need to talk just let me know.
It's one thing to have health concerns. It's another to obsess over them. I'm obsessing. My mom and I have talked about all my concerns and she says when I drop my records off that when I talk to them I should tell them anxiety is #1 on my list. I'm not sleeping / highly anxious because of these concerns. The worries are legitimate worries, but it's affecting my personal life. I've done all I can do for right now and unless something of an emergency pops up I need to realize this and calm myself the hell down. Continued thoughts please. I'm taking the steps necessary, but it's not calming me down.
You spoke in your first post of being out of your "meds". Were these to control OCD? Depression? general health concerns? Could the thoughts you are now having be a result of the lack of meds? If so, do what you have to to get back on them. Chemical imbalances don't have to be like diabetes and be apperant physically, some manifest themselves in mental health issues. I am a parish pastor, so admittedly my solutions often run towards prayer, counseling and outward forms of service which take the mind off of self. I don't know if you are ameneble to these thoughts but being that this is the beginning of Holy Week, every area is going to have places of worship likely open every day. Perhaps you can get some aid in these? You continue to have my prayers and best wishes.
The medication I was talking about in my opening post was my anxiety medicine. It's the only prescription medication I take. I am actually thinking of going to church with my mom tonight, but am unsure because of all the concerns I have whether I should go or not. Thanks for your concerns.
Comforting the afflicted is my first task. I urge you to go! (btw, my second task is afflicting the comfortable, but that is for another day! )
Oh that it should always work that fast! I like today in worship. Within our tradition this is the "Sunday of the Passion". It begins with the triumphant entry of Jesus into Jerusalem (Palm Sunday) but as the service continues we read the whole account of the trial and passion of Jesus (today from Luke). In one service we all go from "Hosanna, hosanna" to "Crucify Him, crucify Him" which of course was the Holy Week experiance. It reminds me how fickle we humans have always been and also puts me in mind of what we believe Jesus' mission was, i.e. to serve as a "ransom for many". I hope and pray your experiance was meaningful and helped in your longer term healing process! Blessings,
I don't know I haven't even seen anyone yet -- got my records friday and i was upstate so I couldn't go. I'm gonna go out tomorrow to the doctors and tell them what's up and if they still wanna pull the "we'll call you" type of mentality there's somewhere that will see me. My anxiety level is through the roof, I have no pills (luckily for me my family suffers from anxiety as well so I've been given some pills from my mom and aunt), and no one will be able to convince me I don't have this except a professional. I'm nervous as a man before lorena bobbit. I've got some other things I'm worried about as well... I haven't been sleeping, my schoolwork is suffering in a few classes, and everyone can tell I'm incredibly nervous. I'm consistently going to friends about it and that's no fun for them or I. The pills I've been given aren't really even working all that well. They take the edge off mentally but I can still feel an anxious heart. It was palm sunday (saturday) for us as well. I got palm leaves (gave them to my mom) and we were blessed with water and incense was draped over us. I followed along in the book but didn't know any words to the songs or really what was going on. I was either too struck by the ritual (I had forgotten it from prior times) or too panicked. Thanks guys.
The ritual of a festival day can be both deeply meaningful and overwhelming, sometimes at the same time! I keep you and your situation in my prayers!
so.. this place hasn't called me back. i walked in there roughly this time yesterday to an empty waiting room and two workers. now, i don't know what kind of practice he runs, but the waiting room was empty! i've decided not to wait and i'm gonna go back up to where i was previously.. the only sucky part is i'll have to pay out of pocket. but i can't keep walking around like this.
ok called that guy. they aren't accepting new patients until may. no good. called another guy. they aren't accepting new patients until april. no good. called yet another guy. they call me back for an appointment like the first guy, but they gave me a 24-48 hour window. this i can work with. going later to fill out paperwork and get tested..
Good, keep at it. Also remember, tomorrow is the first of April so the second doc will be available then if something doesn't work out here.
went to the ER cuz I didn't wanna wait to get these tests done.. turns out i waited all night. i just got home. they came back fine. i was given a 1mg anxiety pill +20 more to be filled up soon. waiting on other doctor to call so i can go in and get other tests and stuff done.
OK, you now have a three week window to get back to a theraputic level of your medication. In addition you have the assurance that the worst of your realistic fears have proven to be unfounded. This is all very good news! Continue to work through the medical stuff and get your meds in good order. May the Easter season grant you a bit of peace! Blessings!
saw the dr. detailed info to follow. might not wanna read. they went over my ER results with me. said they didn't really run the tests i wanted, but they ran what i'm guessing is a complete blood count. it has a whole bunch of things on it like hematology and such. they're all normal. dr. said that if that's all normal then 95% of the time there's nothing to worry about, but she ordered the tests anyway. i got them done yesterday and just waiting and praying on the results. i also went to a psychologist. i was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder and put on effexor for long term anxiety and given more lorazepam for short term relief. i'm going to go to therapy once a week for a while and then go from there. my goal is to eventually be off any anxiety medication and therapy and to be able to function on my own. i'm worried most about one thing i'd rather not say publicly and advanced UTI. i have cloudy urine and pain.. which like i said earlier i'm worried might be mrsa. i discussed this with my dr. yesterday and they didn't send me to the hospital, which i'm pretty sure they would have if they thought they should have.. but they didn't run any mrsa tests, so i'm still kinda "eh" about that. otherwise.. the medicine is giving me side effects and will take some time to kick in. trying to function is still difficult because i don't know the state of the tests and whether or not i'm going to land in a hospital.
