On March the 20th of this year I went to the St. Jos. emergency room with a racing heart (130BPM) and chest pains. After several test, including an EKG, the staff Dr. told me it looked as if I'd had one or more silent heart attacks. After other test I was told I had two blockages in veins in the upper part of my heart, one was 100% and the other was 60%, and I would be operated on to open them up by putting stints inside to get me back to normal. On that Monday evening, 7:00 PM, I was on the operating table and after some time the Dr. informed me he had opened up the 60% vein and all had gone well, I had not felt a thing during this whole process. They moved me to a side room and almost at once I started to feel very faint/bad and about 12 or more nurses started working on me the Dr. shows back up and he informs me that there is blood in my chest cavity which he has to remove by suction, He tells me that what he is about to do is going to hurt very badly but can't be avoided. He cuts a hole in my chest and inserts a steel tube into my chest cavity it felt as if I was being stabbed. There is no way I can explain just how bad it was ... worse than anything I've ever gone thru in my life. As I was laying there and moaning I said to God if this is the end I'm ready, it's your call, that very second my answer was ... well shut up and let the Dr. and I do our job. I made on further sounds though the pain was still there, not sure for how long, and everything went dark. My next thoughts were of my two daughters faces in front of me telling me that they loved me I tried to reply but couldn't then all goes black again. the next day, Wednesday I wake up as they are beginning to put these tubes out of my throat and i'm told that I may has a little ice but nothing else. Two weeks later they moved me out of ICU. On May 4th I was allowed to come home. I've always believed in God though I've explored many different belief systems thus my path has been less that straight. I, to this day, question organized Religion because of the messages I've received from the clergy of different faiths. However none of that has shaken my faith/belief in God which is stronger than ever because of my latest journey.